We all have something in our hearts such as good and bad memories. Good memories help us to keep walking where we are heading to. But, bad memories, we should use them wisely to learn, grow, moving to new you etc.
If you wanna use your bad memories and experiences to help you to grow, one thing we can do is face them. It is scary and not pleasant at all, but, if we avoid to see them now, then, we repeat the situations or bring things to feel the same feelings as you have, then, God push you to face them eventually. And, it is not really fun at all as some of you might know. So, if you feel you repeat some events, feelings etc, then, please stop and look at in your heart. What is the trigger for you to feel this, How you feel now, why you feel this, when this start etc.
You might cry, but, it is ok. You got hurt, but, you have tried to walk, kept pushing you to go through and move on. So, just give you a time to stop, reflect, release and rest.
It is a wonderful time to release anything no longer serve you now since full moon is coming soon. Be honest with yourself. No one is laughing at you, or judging you. If you feel you are judged even you do this process by yourself, then, check yourself. You might really hard on you. Be gentle yourself. You always work hard for yourself, so be kind to yourself.
Healing journey is like peeling onions. You peel one layer, then, another one shows up. It seems never ending, but, when you face and heal your major themes in your life time, you will be free from it.
Do not give up. Take your time to do it. healing journey is marathon not sprint. So, take detours and smell roses sometimes, or just relax, sleep or eat etc. It will help you to keep walking. You will be surprised how far you have come in the future and how your life has changed.